I’ve been walking in Red
Heels through the apple of the forest
to meet you when all my feet want
to do is touch down, and admit they are dirty.
Attempting to salvage my life in half I cut
to the chase revealing the starry starving heart
& ate all the breadcrumbs in a bid to feel full
now lost I am sitting at the base of this tree drowning
in all my knowledge of you being
no closer to having a clue as to what to do
Pretty dresses wrap me in Red threads bound
to my ancestors, when all I want to do is
Carry on the line, instead of fearing blood
Loss I’m quaking with the dread that one day
I will stop bleeding altogether
Long before I’ve cracked
the Rubik’s cube of life
& figured out how to piece my ticking time together
beating on the wood of circulating in and out I am cocky smart
without a whip to lash back in
Making-up lies to keep me going when does
Wisdom dress up deceit & since when
Do puzzles solve themselves or fit
Into place while we sit watching
for our boiling points?
I am so sick of
simmering like the faint whisper of a whimper
I would shoot holes in my brain & my heart if it would make anything better
But since when did destruction ever fill anything
but a leaky bucket & since when did time
Heal anything except everything we’ve finally forgotten
To grasp onto so tightly in our sleep?
& in the morning I pray my dreams will make me a slithering
of Eve loving her alter ego Lilith, chasing babies born of demon love to
regurgitate them like hope & perseverance
as two sister sinners grasp hands
and make peace with themselves
and all they have ever eaten to sustain living
in a paradise of their own making.
One bite of life
Copyright Adrienne Adams January 13th 2015.